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Soz peeps but I have been in a weird state AS PER. Basics, last week I bought Vampire Diaries Season 1 to watch and to put it this way... I watched 22 40 minute episodes in 3 days...

It is EVERYTHING I love in a tv show being a teenager and all

1. The perfect couple

2. The perfect man with a mysterious backround (TEAM STEFAN btw ANTI DAMON!!!!)

3. Interesting storylines which don't repeat, (Gossip girl is really coming to an end...)

4. Good soundtrack

5. And most importantly FANTASY!!!

As much as I hate to admit I was a hugeeeeeeeee Twilight fan, but this is just another level in my eyes.

Well my sister used to be obsessed with Buffy which I would say is pretty similar, maybe without the black comedy.

I don't know what it is but this fictional vampire has taken over my life! I can't think for over 30 minutes without thinking about this tv show and replaying scenes in my head. For example

This scene has me in tears every time !

here 

It's shocking how much my 14 year old tendencies have returned. I am quite literally the typical 16 year old girl!

The worrying thing though is that it is totally affecting my concentration in school, I can't think straight without relating something to it. My homework diary is covered in characters names. This is so unlike me! The worst thing is I even have a countdown on my calender to when each episode comes out. I feel for my friends who have to put up with me, actually in some cases I don't for I have had to put up with endless conversations over the Bieber! (Which I still don't get)

So I advise you, if you yourself are like me DO NOT WATCH THIS SHOW. It makes me happy watching it but when I am not, I am bitterly depressed to the extent I have withdrawal symptoms. I have watched every interview, scene, behind the scenes, read every wikipedia page.

So this is why I am lacking posts ETC... Due to an insane obsession over a fictional relationship between a fictional vampire and girl.

Much love xx

P.s.

The two songs which feature in my favourite scene and sad scene

Plumb - Cut (The scene where they first 'make love')

Athlete - Wires SUCH a tearjerker (definitely emphasizes the crying in the scene)

 

It's half term, and its been quite good. I've balanced out work and play by studying in mornings and going out in afternoon. I headed up to London on monday with my friend and we ventured about. We had lunch in Hampstead (North London) then went to south of central to Knightsbridge. We were in Harrods and amiring the evening gowns etc... and then we decided to catch the tube to Trafalgar Square in the evening to take a couple of piccieeeeees. The atmosphere was buzzy and generally nice. Just thought I'd give you a quick update.

Music wise I've made a playlist from collecting various songs, theres a bit of everything from Classical to Ska to alternative to soul.

I'll post it when I have time.

 

So life is surprisingly okay for now! Confidence has risen slightly again, Laura Marling and Arcade Fire won Brit's today. I chuckled when all these mainstream losers asked who they were. (I'm joking) Excuse my sarcasm but any ho I got my Exam timetable for summer today and now it is time to start working if I want to go to boarding school next year!

I'm making a mixed playlist at the moment which I'll post sooner or later. 

Cya Xxxx

Think before you speak

So I'm ill, lonely and a little out of place.


I need to make something clear about what I think.
It seems like the majority of people think that I'm a wannabe but the ones that know me love me and have always accepted me for who I am because they don't judge me from my facebook photo's or status'.
I have always had the same music taste, I have always liked everything that I like now! So why can't people accept that hey I don't want to dress the same as most people because I like to look different! And why should I be called a wannabe for that?
I'm lucky that I have confidence to wear my clothes but at the same time I am very sensitive about peoples opinions of me.
Are they jealous? Or just don't like me? But how can they not like me if they don't even know me properly?
I am a nice person! I talk like everyone else! Why should I not be treated like everyone else just because I dress differently and like different music!


I am fully aware that there are other people just like me who have the same taste in life but there are so many more people like the ones who don't like me!


All my life my family have told me to be myself, and when I take on this advice I get dissed and gain no respect. How is this fair?! I'm a nice person, I have manners, etiquette, I want to have fun like every other teenager but people make this so hard!




I don't think any less of people that like mainstream music or tv or whatever. Do you not remember grown ups telling you to treat people how you would like to be treated. Why is this not the case with me?




Just think before you bitch about someone, what have they actually done to you?


So next time when you're on facebook, remember you're behind a computer screen with a blank face. If you're going to be a bitch, earn some decensy and say it to their face or say nothing at all.


Because it hurts the other side to know that people dislike you for no valid reason except for being or (trying in their case) to be different.




So, instead of joining along with the others on a facebook status about someone else, why don't you actually see how the person is who is being victimised. It would make their day and trust it feels good once you know you have done a decent thing and it is things like that that earn you respect.

I'll send an Sos to the world

I don't really like posting stuff that isn't my own on here unless I have something to say about it. Hence why the lack of 'blogging'

1. I have more important things (school)
2. I can't transfer my feelings or thoughts into writing (a frustrating problem I have had for years)
3. I'm lazy
4. Why should I need to share my personal opinion with others whom I don't know are + Why do I want people to know about my private life publicly? Isn't that what a diary is for?

All I can say is that I am very very alone and I don't like and know of anyone who can help with this situation so please leave me be to complain about my 'perfect' life.

I prefer talking

P.s. I'm not going to post an unknown song from youtube which has only 10 000 views, I am infact posting one of my all time favorite songs which has no meaning for you or me but I just like it and have grown up listening to it.





Goodbye to all, I'll be back next week but for now I chill with my 'indie' parents who have just come back from abroad.

My facial expression reflecting my mood....